I have given up on the idea of ever sleeping.
I have filed the idea away in my mental filing cabinet as something that only dads do.
I am not awake because I am worrying. Unlike most mothers, I actually don't do this much. This is a lesson God walked me thru long ago when David was a baby. Plus, I am not a problem fixer/thinker by nature. I am more the martyr type -not an attractive trait.
I am awake because one of my children is being very unlovable. Too bad ears don't have an off switch. I find myself calculating how many hours it will be before the next episode. hmm what will be next - peed bed?,scary dream?, early snow plow?, police at my neighbors? Why bother. I need the caffeine patch. Have you seen the movie Meet the Robinson's? The scientist mom wears a caffeine patch. She doesn't sleep for 8 days - no side effects just untimely and uncontrollable screams - no one would ever suspect anything.
