Wednesday, October 26, 2011

My mama told me there would be days like these...


I can't believe I am saying it: but I miss when the kids were younger.

I know I have been living for these days.
My kids can all get their own seatbelts on. 2 of the 3 can read, all 3 can do their own bathroom business. Yes, I do sleep more now. (when the sleep pee er isn't in action. )

But I honestly miss the: "Mama, play trains with me?"
Today it is fighting, fighting, fighting.

I think:"geez, this unkindness is unnerving to me." Am I going to regret staying home to invest in these kids? Because they are acting just like all the others, and it isn't just today. It is like I never spend any time telling them the things of the Lord. There are words that stir up anger, selfish, selfish, and more selfishness and laziness too. Usually my daily reading in Proverbs in an encouragement to me. Lately, it has been a mirror of all the things my kids are doing to discourage me. Perhaps I am expecting a return on my investment too soon? Maybe. Today I can honestly say I am beginning to think that a paycheck might just have been a better thing.

Top it off by music lessons - nothing spells fun like an untuned instrument, horribly played. Insert Eyeroll.

I stepped in dog doo too. Because I was cleaning it up! Not the children who promised me over and over that they would care for this dog! GRRRRRRR.

Probably it has more to do with the fact that I had to throw out my skinny jeans yesterday. (I was in denial. ) Maybe it is winter? The hot water heater giving us a warning of : "Hey I am not going to help you anymore?" Or just maybe it is because I feel and look old.

Nope, pretty sure it is them.

I know we all have days like these. If you don't and I am mislead - don't tell me.
I am going to have my own temper tantrum, put myself in time out and get over it.